Thursday, February 26, 2015

When it comes to falling asleep, I'm failing miserably.

No matter how much I try to fall asleep at a decent hour, I fail miserably of late. I sit in front of my television watching reruns of shows I've watched hundreds of times before and yet, I can not wind down and fall asleep. My mind continues to race and never stops reliving the events of the day or the heartbreak I have for not being able to see my son as often as I'd like. I'm taking 900mg of Seroquel at night and it just isn't doing the job. I remember when I first started taking Seroquel and how it use to wipe me out but that isn't the case anymore. I have a doctor's appointment in less than a month and I'll have to ask him to increase my dosage. I'm not looking forward to the trip because I'll have to take numerous buses to get there and back. My car just isn't working well enough for me to chance taking a half hour trip in stop and go traffic. Sometimes I wish I could win the lottery and buy a nice car, so I wouldn't have to worry about my car breaking down anymore. Tomorrow is The Publisher's Clearing House Sweepstakes announcement for the winner of five thousand dollars a week for the rest of your life. I'm not going to lie. I'm going to be looking through my window throughout the day to see if I can spot the Publisher's Clearing House winning van. Even one check for five thousand dollars would solve me current dilemma. I could go out and purchase a reliable used car and let go of that constant worry. Sure, it wouldn't solve all my problems but it would elevate some and that would be a giant burden off my shoulders. My mind is racing and it's mostly worry and it will be the death of me because it wears me down. I feel like I don't have anyone in the world to run to anymore. My family has turned their back on me because I spoke out on being molested by my step dad. Now I'm sitting alone in my apartment most of the day wishing I could be with my son. It isn't fair but life isn't fair and I'll just have to struggle through my days until I find the strength to move on with my life. It won't be easy because I only have myself.

Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful.  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...

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