Wednesday, April 29, 2015

I guess college isn't for everyone.

For the last couple of months I've been attempting to enroll at my local community college. I know that doesn't sound like a big achievement but for me, it definitely is a big deal. You see, I'm not someone that ventures outside, much less surround myself with a lot of people I don't know very well. Every step I made to put myself in a position to start classes this Summer has been a challenge. I had to take a number of assessment test and meet with a guidance counselor. The paperwork that it took to enroll was very confusing because it's difficult for me to concentrate with my illness. There are times when I feel like my Paranoid Schizophrenia is kept in check by the prescribed medication I take. However, those periods come and go. Sometimes I'm at a lost, as to what I'm suppose to do in order to get things done properly. Today I found out that my attempt to return to school has pretty much ended. You see, seven years ago when I was attending another college, I took out a couple of loans in order to pay for school. Those loans were or given when I was deemed permanently disabled, so I didn't have to pay them back. I was happy that they forgave those loans because that money went directly to the school I was attending and I didn't even finish that many classes. Unfortunately those loans would be reinstated if I took out another loan to attend college again. My financial situation isn't very good because I collect disability and if those former loans were reinstated, my income would be reduced. As it is, I struggle every month to survive with my limited income. I don't have any family whatsoever, except for a niece who lives hundreds of miles away. So, it doesn't look like I'll be attending college anytime soon and to be honest, I don't know if I would have been brave enough to go. I rarely go anywhere and the thought of being surrounded by a lot of people is unnerving. Still, I feel really bad right now because I wanted to make my son proud.  I don't want my son growing up thinking I'm just some mental case that could never be there for him. All the preparation I took seems to be for nothing.

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