Saturday, May 2, 2015

My depression is whipping my behind at the moment.


I can't shake this depression I'm currently going through and taking 60mg of Prozac a day isn't helping very much. The other day I found out that my return to college might be just a pipe dream. I've been on the phone with The Department of Education trying to get a letter sent to the college I want to attend but I'm not sure that it's going to happen. I attempted numerous times to explain my situation and all I got was that I'm not in their system and I should call another number. Of course, I'm just being put on some sadistic merry go round from hell, so I'm not sure what's going to happen. I haven't been in any type of school for a very long time because of my illness. I remember trying my best to complete a trade school but my Paranoid Schizophrenia kept me from accomplishing my goals. You see, stress is a major trigger for my illness. It causes me to forget and leaves me unable to concentrate. When it's at its worse, I even black out and loose time. I've literally blacked out for months at a time in the past because of stress and it can be very scary. Luckily, I seem to go on auto pilot when I black out and nothing goes terribly wrong. Right now all I can do is sleep and take long naps in order to forget my sadness but I know I'll have to snap out of it soon. It isn't easy to do anything when I feel this way. I have a mountain of trash that I haven't had the courage to throw away yet. The dishes in my sink are overflowing. The only thing that gives me strength is my son. I have to watch him all day tomorrow and that requires all my energy. Most three year old children need all your attention and my son is no exception. The minute he arrives he says, "Let's play guys!" It's his way of letting me know that he wants me to play with him and his action figures. So, I'm up now and I have a lot to do in order to make my apartment look somewhat decent. Depression or not, I have to live my life the best I can.

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