Tuesday, December 1, 2015

A sort of Thanksgiving.

It's difficult being alone in the first place but when you add the holiday season, it sometimes becomes unbearable. I use to fear that I would eventually live a life with little or no contact with society and unfortunately the fear has come true. Thanksgiving was really hard on me because I have fond memories of my family getting together and sharing the best meal of the year. Afterwards, I would have the pleasure of interacting with my family and witnessing a togetherness that I currently wished I had. Thanksgiving was really my favorite holiday but now it just highlights the fact that I'm alone now. I spent the entire day sitting on my couch watching football games and various television shows. Around three o'clock I became hungry and decided to warm up my microwave turkey dinner. I splurged on dinner rolls in order to make my meal more complete. The dinner wasn't that bad but I never felt so alone. The loneliness of the holiday season is sometimes too much for me to handle. I started to cry after I finished my meal. It will never be the same and I'm slowly realizing this fact. The only joy of the day came when my ex girlfriend dropped off my son around nine. He was so happy to see me and he wanted us to play with his Hot Wheels, so I sat down on the carpet and played cars with him for about an hour. He fell asleep leaning against me on the floor, while still holding one of his Hot Wheel cars. Laying on the floor for so long made my legs hurt, as well as, my back. I wasn't comfortable at all. Still, I sat on the ground with my son for another hour or so, even though he was cuddled up against me and sound asleep. I needed to feel wanted by someone. I'm so thankful to have him with me, even if it's a few days a week. I can't imagine life without him.

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