Thursday, March 31, 2016

You're just a shadow on the wall.



Sometimes I feel like one of those people who survived a deadly flu pandemic, that they fictionalize on television and in films. I'm left alone, as a survivor because somehow I was immune to the virus. I'm left alone in my apartment with little or no contact from the outside world. The people and the cars that I see when I do venture outside are just ghost. They are simply figments of my imagination that confuse me into believing that I'm really not alone. I laugh a little inside because I'm pretty sure there isn't a soul out there that's thinking about me anymore. I'm an island onto myself, and if you are reading this, you're just a shadow on the wall.






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My dying car...



Thursday, March 17, 2016

Feeling lost.



I often wish things were different, and I didn't live in the shadows. Sometimes I feel like I'm slowly disappearing, and with very little notice. The anxiety that keeps me hiding away from the world is too much to bare, and I want to be saved. Unfortunately, who can save me now? I feel so lost right now.






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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email arichere@yahoo.com Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...


Friday, March 11, 2016

My son singing Happy Birthday to me...





My son singing Happy Birthday to me... He's such a sweet boy and I love him more than life itself. He's the reason I get up every morning and why I continue to fight the good fight when it comes to my illness.
















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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email arichere@yahoo.com Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...








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Why do people steal from the less fortunate? i.e. Me




I still can't believe someone stole my car battery and ripped out hoses. They have no idea what it's done to me. I have to save up money, in order to repair my twenty year old car or I can't have visits with my son.










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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email arichere@yahoo.com Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...






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Mental illness and isolation; How I'm coping...(Schizophrenia)




Painting with water colors may not be the most exciting thing to do but it does keep me busy.












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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email arichere@yahoo.com Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...








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Unfortunately, some dreams don't come true.





I went for a long walk today, in order to get a haircut. I know that doesn't sound like a big deal but it's really difficult for me to walk on sidewalks, while cars pass bye. I feel like I'm being watched and my anxiety level goes through the roof! I do my best to hide behind my dark sun glasses, even though it's currently overcast with light showers, in the city I live in. Some cars slow down and look at me, I'm sure of it. I feel so naked, as if everyone can tell I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown. I finally made it to the place I get my haircut and I was sweating profusely, even though it's clearly cold outside. The stylist asked how my day was going and did I have any plans for this upcoming weekend? Every time I'm put in this position, I lie. Nobody wants to hear the truth, so I explain that I'm spending time with my family and we might go to the movies. Who wants to hear that I'm self medicating and sleeping my days away because I miss my son and I have no friends? When I finally made it home, I checked my email and saw that Publisher's Clearing House says I have a great chance of winning one of two automobiles in their sweepstakes. I mean, I couldn't afford to own a new car but the thought of being able to drive and to have frequent visits with my son would be a dream come true. Unfortunately, some dreams don't come true.






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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email arichere@yahoo.com Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...









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Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Alone in the dark.



It's been awhile since I've updated this blog, but nothing much has changed since my last post. I've been sleeping the days away, in order to escape my depression. I pray for the night to come because it feels safer. I miss my son. I don't know what I should do anymore. I just wished everything was quiet and not so bright. The sunlight hurts my eyes and the leaves that blow along the outside of my front door hurt my ears. I sit curled up on my couch in fear of something that isn't real but continues to scare me nonetheless. Sleep is my only salvation for the time being, but even that can't last forever. I don't want to face this world right now.







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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email arichere@yahoo.com Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...





#Paranoid Schizophrenia #Schizophrenia #Mental Illness #Seroquel #Prozac #Mental health awareness #Sexual abuse #Project Exclamation Point #Schizophrenic #Anxiety #Depression