Monday, April 25, 2016

What a knock on my front door means to me. Living with mental illness.



In this video, I talk about what a knock on my front door means to me. Living with mental illness.








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My dying car...
                      

Friday, April 22, 2016

Target Store employees and their personal questions ~ Mental Health Awareness.







In this video, I talk about my visit to a local Target department store and how a question by an employee left me feeling depressed.








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My dying car...
                      




Tuesday, April 12, 2016

The messsage won't matter anymore.



It always seems like I see a very conspicuous butterfly perched outside my window, after a death of someone close to me. The butterfly sits there, still, and without any movement for what seems like several minutes. I stare and wonder, if it's trying to tell me something, or convey some kind of message to me. Then, as soon as it appeared, it flies away revealing nothing. I'm left feeling bad and dishearten, because I sense that some time in the future I'll be given the reasons why? However, the message won't matter anymore.






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My dying car...
                      



Friday, April 8, 2016

Sadly, mental health awareness just isn't sexy enough.




In this video, I talk about how I feel about mental health awareness and the lack of visibility. After all, mental health isn't sexy enough.




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Tuesday, April 5, 2016

I doubt anyone wants to hear my truth.


I went to get a hair cut today! I know, it doesn't sound like a big deal, but for me it's a time to go outside and interact with the world, or in this case, with a hair stylist. There's nothing like the feeling of a fresh hair cut. I feel so much better and accomplished. However, on the downside, my interaction with my hair stylist left me feeling bad. You see, she asked me, "Any plans today?" I thought to myself and I couldn't say, "Yes, I was all excited to go outside and get my planned hair cut!" It hardly sounds like an achievement worth bragging about, but I didn't know how to respond to her question. I simply lied and said, "I planned to take my family out for lunch and spend quality time with my son." I couldn't bring myself to tell her that this act was the highlight of my day. I doubt anyone wants to hear my truth.






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My dying car...


If I could be who you wanted...



I sometimes forget what it feels like to care about someone. Likewise, I always forget what it feels like to have someone care about me. I mean, I care about my son and I love him with all my heart, but other than that I feel an emptiness. I wonder if anyone out there thinks about me and my well being? Does someone out there have love in their heart for me? I have so much love to give and to receive, but still no takers.


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Friday, April 1, 2016

Why me?


I'm hardly senile, however, my illness can make one think otherwise. It isn't about being forgetful or absent minded. I simply have breaks from the reality of certain situations. For instance, I recently went to the supermarket and after paying for my groceries, I started to walk away from the cashier and just before I was out the door, the security guard informed me that I forgot to take my bags of food. I felt embarrassed but it wasn't the first time something like this has happened to me. I can remember going to the ATM at my bank and drawing a complete blank when it came to my PIN number. I know that doesn't sound drastic but I've had the same PIN number for over a decade. I stood in front of the ATM and started to get upset because I couldn't believe I could forget something so simple. Then, this morning I was unpacking a bag of groceries from my car and placed the bag on the roof of my vehicle. Later, I sat down in my living room of my one bedroom apartment and watched television. I started to get thirsty and only then realized the soda that I bought earlier was likely still on the roof of my car. I ran outside into the parking lot of my apartment complex, where my car is parked. Sadly, my soda, along with other things I purchased were long gone. I can only say that it isn't that I'm simply forgetting. My mind really does go blank and I go on auto pilot. The anxiety I feel and the constant worry that I have about my life in general leaves me dumbfounded and I'm left thinking, why me? 




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