Friday, April 1, 2016

Why me?


I'm hardly senile, however, my illness can make one think otherwise. It isn't about being forgetful or absent minded. I simply have breaks from the reality of certain situations. For instance, I recently went to the supermarket and after paying for my groceries, I started to walk away from the cashier and just before I was out the door, the security guard informed me that I forgot to take my bags of food. I felt embarrassed but it wasn't the first time something like this has happened to me. I can remember going to the ATM at my bank and drawing a complete blank when it came to my PIN number. I know that doesn't sound drastic but I've had the same PIN number for over a decade. I stood in front of the ATM and started to get upset because I couldn't believe I could forget something so simple. Then, this morning I was unpacking a bag of groceries from my car and placed the bag on the roof of my vehicle. Later, I sat down in my living room of my one bedroom apartment and watched television. I started to get thirsty and only then realized the soda that I bought earlier was likely still on the roof of my car. I ran outside into the parking lot of my apartment complex, where my car is parked. Sadly, my soda, along with other things I purchased were long gone. I can only say that it isn't that I'm simply forgetting. My mind really does go blank and I go on auto pilot. The anxiety I feel and the constant worry that I have about my life in general leaves me dumbfounded and I'm left thinking, why me? 




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