Tuesday, June 7, 2016

It's been a while.

Hi, it's been awhile since I posted on this personal blog. I wish I could write and tell you that life has been so wonderful, but that really hasn't been the case. I've been tired and my depression has left me without any energy to get things done. I'm just existing and that's about it. I feel so isolated right now and to tell the truth, I don't know if having people in my life would be such a blessing. I've been alone for so long that I forgot what being a friend entails and the thought of having someone in my life gives me a lot of anxiety. I've never had many friends and the reason isn't because I'm not friendly. I'm super nice in real life and bend over backwards to give thanks to people. I just don't know how to be a friend. I feel unworthy to have a friend because of my illness. I don't want to let down a friend by saying, "Sorry, I really can't be there for you because my Schizophrenia has me feeling very sick." Sure, there are special people who would be understanding, but I don't know any of them. So, I'm left feeling lonely and wishing life was different for me. I know I'm not the only person that's currently going through a rough time and I feel kind of guilty because, even though I'm aware that my life is kind of miserable, there are so many people that have it much worse.

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My dying car...