Tuesday, July 19, 2016

"On love, many have wrote, but to my dying friend I write this note." - EAS

I don't have any friends. I'm not telling you that to garner any sympathy, just stating a fact. I mean, I have a few close friends on my Facebook and Instagram but in real life, I have no friends or acquaintances. One of the characteristics of my illness (Paranoid Schizophrenia) is to withdraw ones self from the world and keep to themselves. This fact, is true in my case and it often leaves me feeling alone and depressed. Don't get me wrong, I want to have friends but the thought of opening up and letting people into my life is kind of scary to me. You see, I know myself very well and what I need from a personal relationship. I also know that being a true friend isn't like being a fair weathered friend. Unfortunately, because of my illness, I sometimes can't be there for anyone. There are times in my life when I can't communicate with the world and just need alone time. To any perspective friend, this behavior might seem selfish or not being a good friend. Having a friend to me is very special because I don't want to be alone anymore but at the same time, having a friend can be too much for me to handle. Sometimes people say that they want to be there for me, but do they really know what that entails? If someone says, "Let's be friends." Do I have to say, "Well, that would be great, but I have to explain that I might not be the greatest friend at times." Unfortunately, in the past I have lost friends who didn't understand my illness and decided to move on without me. Every time I loose a friend, I die a little inside.


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