Tuesday, August 23, 2016
What it's like having Schizophrenia?
So, I've been up since 3am and although I couldn't sleep any longer, I'm still very tired. The impact from taking 1200mg of Seroquel, in order to sleep at night, can last well into the next day. I'm really groggy, but I want to accomplish things today. All morning I've been debating if I should go to the supermarket this morning, or should I wait until tomorrow. I literally sit on my couch for hours debating what I should do, and if I should put it off until another day. For instance, should I go to the store? Should I get my mail, it's been several weeks since I went to my mail box? Do I have enough money to last the rest of this month? Should I sell some of my possessions on Ebay? All these questions, as I sit almost comatose on my couch and nothing gets done. Most of my life takes place in thought, with very little action. I can't get anything done, even though I try my best and it feels like I'm stuck in mud. My inability to take action must be a side effect of my Paranoid Schizophrenia, but knowing this is little comfort to me. My life is slipping away, while I sit and watch, like a bystander.
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