Wednesday, October 12, 2016

I think it's a common misconception that people who suffer from mental illness are surrounded by a supportive family.

I think a lot of people have common misconceptions, when it comes to mental illness. There's one certain assumption that bothers me in particular, at least it has recently. Yes, I suffer from Paranoid Schizophrenia, and it makes my life beyond difficult. I think some people assume that I have a loving and supportive family, that helps me get through the rough patches in my life. You'd be wrong, if you thought I had any family that cared, or was in contact with me on a regular basis (There's a good reason). Yes, no family whatsoever, as well as, no friends whatsoever. I would be completely isolated, if I didn't share the responsibility of raising my son, with my ex girlfriend. It's a very lonely feeling, going through life with literally no conversation with a friend or family member, besides my five year old son. The days and nights that I don't have my son at home can only be described as the epitome of loneliness. When I'm alone, I sit down on my living room couch most of the time. Day or night, I sit there in silence, with only my television occasionally peaking my interest. I know what you might be thinking... Why don't I try to make friends? Why don't you go outside? Why don't you go somewhere, where there's a lot of people? I would say, "You're forgetting that my mental illness makes that extremely difficult. The fact is, the moment I go somewhere, I spend most of my energy wishing I was safe at home. You see, going anywhere can be so stressful and I'm engulfed with anxiety the moment I step out of my apartment. Also, my car is over twenty years old and it's falling apart. Unfortunately, it's currently my only lifeline to the world and having the ability to share the experience of raising my son. The moment I start my car, I pray to God it won't break down over and over. My fear is that one day soon it will break down for good, and my life would subsequently be in ruins. I know that sounds like I'm being overly dramatic, but it's the truth, as far as I'm concerned. This is why I have a link on my page to a GoFundMe and a PayPal account. I've had this set up for quite sometime, but to date, not one person has donated a penny. I totally understand there are people far worse off than me. I also know that it isn't always possible for someone to help me, just because they visit my blog. To tell the truth, I wouldn't want any help from someone that couldn't afford to give their money freely, and without concern for their own well being. I need help and it is my hope that one day the right person will stumble upon my blog, and give me a hand up, not a hand out. I'm alone, with no family or friends, but I have faith that one day my son and I will have a better life.

If you'd like, please click the link below and visit my YouTube Channel.
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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful.  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...