Well, tomorrow is my birthday. Another year of barely surviving, yet I've come to the realization that maybe this is my lot in life. I do have dreams and my ambition to turn my life around hasn't completely gone away. Sometimes I wonder how I'm going to last another year? My relationship with my son is everything to me, but if I can't afford to live on my own, I could lose to most important person in my life. I have to get back in shape mentally and psychically, but it's so difficult with my illness (Paranoid Schizophrenia). Deep down, I know I can't beat this and maybe I can return to college and get a job that will keep me out of poverty. However, I know I need help and for everything to align the right way, in order for me to succeed. My car is currently leaking a great deal of transmission fluid. If I lose my car, I might lose my visits with my son. The amount of stress from this alone has me struggling with my anxiety. Stress is a killer for me because it brings on the bad symptoms of my illness. I know that there are a lot of people who have it worse than me, and I'm grateful for what little I have. I don't mind eating food I buy from The Dollar Tree and not having bought any pants, shorts, or shoes in over seven years. It's my son that I think about and I can't tell you how many nights I cry because I can't give my son everything he deserves. I feel selfish for doing this, but I made a list of items (A Wish List) on Amazon. It's my hope that someone or a few people have it in their means to help me out. More than anything, I wish I was able to afford a mattress because the inflatable bed my son and I share is losing air and I have to pump air into the valve several times a night. The other items on the Wish List are just dream items, but it doesn't hurt to list, well... just my pride. If you can help in anyway, I would really appreciate it and I would never bother you, I promise. I've had links to a PayPal account and a Gofundme listing for quite a long time. The main reason I put it on my page is I know my car will die soon. I need a used car soooo bad, but I have so little money. I feel ashamed to write about this, but tomorrow is my birthday, so I can dream.
My Amazon wish list: https://www.amazon.com/
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Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email firstname.lastname@example.org Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!
My dying car...