Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Please help me...



It's been awhile since I last updated this blog. A lot has happened in the last few months. Some of the events have been good, while others have been quite bad. Don't get me wrong because I am grateful to have a roof over my head and food in my refrigerator. I now live in a loft above a garage, in a very decent neighborhood compared to where I use to live. There's nothing but farmland surrounding me and two lane roadways are the norm. I was quite fortunate to find this place because the people who own the house are so friendly. The last few months while I had my son over, he was able to go swimming, as well as play with the neighboring farm animals. Seeing my son happy is what I live for, however, the worse possible thing happened a few days ago. My car finally died on the side of a road. According to a mechanic, it isn't worth fixing because the cost would be double what my car is worth. I have to say that the last few days have been horrible for me because I'm unsure on how I'll survive without a car. I mean, I can get rides to the store from the nice people that I live with, but I can no longer pick up and drop my son off at school. My time with my son will be very limited. I've been crying so much lately because this was everything I was afraid of happening. I have about a hundred dollars to my name and I was barely surviving on my disability, so I don't know how I'll ever save up money for another used car. I feel like such a failure in life. How can I be a good father to my son, if I can't be in his life as much? This is terrible and I simply don't know what to do. If you read any part of my blog, you'd understand that I don't have any family or friends in my life that could help me out. I don't have any contact with my family for a very good reason. I'm not going to get into why, except to say that I was sexually assaulted by my step dad, but my family doesn't care and turned their back on me because I'm sure they think that someone with a mental illness isn't a "Real" person in the first place. I'm scared and can't sleep because my anxiety is off the charts. I've started to self medicate, in order to be able to sleep more. I really don't know what's going to happen anymore. I'm not suicidal, but I wouldn't be unwelcome, if death bothered to knock on my door. Like I wrote earlier, it's been a while since I've updated this blog. The Internet seems to be my only hope for someone to help me out financially. I don't enjoy asking for help, even the the homeowners that I live with, have been so kind. They can see that I'm struggling and have offered rides. The wife even said she cosign on a used car for me. I told her that, "You hardly know me." "It wouldn't feel right," I explained. In truth, I worry because what if I default on a loan and ruin someone else's credit. I couldn't do that to someone so nice. So, I'm left with asking for help from anyone who's reading this entry. If you have it in your means and can give, any amount of money would be greatly appreciated. I know that there are far better places to spend your money and people who are in worse positions, but if you can help me... I need someone or some people who have been blessed with material wealth to hear my plea for help. I miss my son so much, even though it's only been about a week since I've seen him. There's a link at the bottom of my page for a GoFundme account, as well as, a Paypal email you can donate to. Again, if you can help, God bless you.






Please GoFundMe... In Need of Purchasing a Dependable Used Car, so I can visit my son regularly. Any amount would help and I'll be forever grateful. http://www.gofundme.com/m12hgk  Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email arichere@yahoo.com Please read my story, as to why I need help. Thank You So Very Much!!!!

My dying car...