Sunday, January 7, 2018

Please help me! And God bless. Gofundme Page for a new engine for my car.

I want to preface this entry by saying, thank you to anyone who took the time out of their day to read this entry. I haven't updated this blog in quite a while. Mainly because I was too busy attempting to get my life back on track. However, now my life feels like a mess and I'm a bigger hole. Someone please help me! And if you have the time, please read my entire blog. It will help you better understand my situation. Thank you.

My car engine is mis-firing and is no longer drive-able. I'm told after spending the last three hundred dollars I had, it needs a new engine. Unfortunately, I had to take out a high interest loan just to purchase this car less than a year ago, and have payments until 2020. I've been told that the cost of a new engine will be around 3000.00, but I'm sure it will cost more. I've gone years without fixing a dental plate because I couldn't afford the 699.00 share of cost from my insurance. I also have been using electrical tape to fix my eye glasses because I never have an extra hundred dollars to get a new pair.

I don't feel comfortable asking for help, but I really have no friends, or family. I'm currently disabled and receive Social Security Disability income. It's barely enough to pay my bills, and keep my son fed and clothed properly. I can't ask family because even though my step father, who sexually assaulted me, as well as, offered me money numerous times for oral sex has passed away, I family chose to stick by his side. I'm sure the believed me, but my step dad left them financially secure. I think they felt because I'm suffering from mental illness, I don't deserve to be heard? Side note: When learning about my step dad's approaching death I wrote separate notes forgiving my mom and step father because I wanted God to judge them, not myself. Of course, they probably just ripped up the letters and threw them in the trash. Sadly, my family didn't care about my sexual assault and turned a blind eyed to his drunken ways, as well as past sexual advances on other family members. This is why I don't have any contact with family members for over ten years.

Yes, I suffer from mental illness, but I have it under control and see a doctor regularly. I even made strides to find employment through the state. The past few months I've been going through job rehab. I just wanted to work part time, because I've been frequenting the local food bank, as well as running out of money quickly.

Unfortunately, without a car I can no longer attend job rehab. It will be difficult to go to the food bank, as well. Worse than all that, I won't be able to have my son half the week. I won't be able to pick him up at school, or spend time with him. This breaks my heart! I know you are probably wondering why a person with mental illness would have a child? Being that I'm poor? But there's more to the story. The truth is I'm not his biological father, but have been his only daddy since taking him home from the hospital. For six years, I've been his only father, but now I have to compete with his mom's new boyfriend. It rips my heart out knowing that I can't be with my son, as well as thinking I'll be replaced. You see, my son doesn't know I'm not his biological father. He loves me and I love him to death. We have such a strong bond and I'm scared that it will be lost. Please, if you have a heart, help me. If you can't, I understand, but if you do help....Thank you so much and God Bless!  - Eric Anthony

P.S. Please share this on your social media pages, if you can.

Or you can send funds thru Paypal at my email address  (Again, please only donate, if you can afford to do so. If I do receive any funds through PayPal, I''ll post immediately, as an update on my Gofundme account... I don't want to give the impression that I'm getting money from both places, and not letting anyone know. Again, thank you for reading and God Bless!

If you are interested in learning about me and my life with Paranoid Schizophrenia, please don't hesitate to read my entire blog.

My personal email:

Mailing address:
Eric Anthony
9525 Montevideo Drive
Wilton, CA 95693

Link to my Youtube Video, but please be advised, it's about sexual assault: